2017 was a fair year for me. That’s the best compliment I can give it. It had its fair share of ups and downs.

I turned 21 in 2017. July 29.

Craziest year yet! Freaky 21 is actually a thing😂 The best gift I recieved this year was the growth I’ve gone through as an individual and the lessons I have learnt.

Lessons such as knowing when to let go, moving on and creating space for better things to come.

When the year started, I was in love, school was not in session and I was not in the best head space. I was a wreck underneath all my composure and I only realized this when I had an ugly emotional breakdown.( )

When it ended, I was in love only with myself😍

September-December was the best semester I’ve ever had. I had the time of my life. I managed to accomplish a couple of goals I had set for myself. I wrote more, took more pictures and allowed myself to have more fun, but most importantly, I was more positive in my thinking beacause garbage in, garbage out.

I also failed to accomplish some things. Things like exercising and eating right😂 I don’t even know what happened guys. Its the devil.

But my biggest highlight of the year was the people who made it an easy year for me. My roommates, my strong female support system, my family, my close friends, random strangers I met who were so kind to me, dudes who hit on me😂, human beings who spread love, cute animals that melted my heart😍, adorable babies, oh my goodness, did I mention I am now an aunt to the cutest little girl; Tahilla– First of Her Name, Stealer of Hearts and Bearer of Chubby Cheeks?

Sorry I digressed😅

Where was I? Oh yes, my vote of thanks. To wind up, you guys made my 2017. My readers. Yee who turn up to read my posts everytime, no matter how crappy. Yee who leave me really great comments that make me cry sometimes because lets face it, I am so in touch with my feelings😢 Yee who share my content, talk about my blog to people, follow my blog, are subscribed to my blog and generally support my little space on the internet. Thank You So so much. You mean the world to me, believe it or not😘

So cheers🍻 Happy new year. May your 2018 be the bomb!



I read this tweet (a screenshot of it actually) from Childish Gambino the other day that summed up pretty much how I was feeling.

 It was a tweet about our generation and  how we basically are cold hearted. Girls are scared to love and boys don’t show their feelings. So we end up putting up these giant walls to protect ourselves from falling in love, showing our true feelings and being honest with ourselves.

Truth be told, I go there too often myself. Sometimes I just say, “You know what? Fuck feelings! I’m no longer giving fucks.” Because people and life in general can get you to that point.

But then we can get so accustomed to not caring and not giving a damn about things and not feeling things we are supposed to feel. We push our feelings deep down inside us. We actually miss out on feeling the right way at a particular moment because we have become so used to not feeling things. We want to feel the good and not feel the bad yet it’s part of being human.

I have done that a few times in the name of “hiding my feelings from people.” I did not want to show my feelings in front of people I felt were not supposed to see my vulnerability. So I ‘postponed’ that feeling for some other time. Worst.idea.ever. 

When I confronted the feeling later in private, something terrible happened. Many other feelings I had supressed previously, on diffetent occassions and I had completely forgotten about, resurfaced, all at once. They literally came back to bite me in the ass. It.was.ugly. 

I had a mental breakdown for like half an hour. Imagine a mixture of emotions from everywhere attacking you and you do not know how to feel? I just cried for 30 minutes from all the confusion. Thank God I was alone and I managed to get my shit together.

I am officially working on owning my feelings now because that breakdown was crazy to the core. I thought I was going insane!

I think we become honest with ourselves when we actually own our feelings and allow ourselves to feel in the moment. This is so important for mental health and happiness. 

Life is too short to not feel!

Catch feelings sometimes, give fucks, own your feelings but do not ignore them. 

Feel those feels y’all.